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Hi everybody.. Thanx 2 those who have been supporting my blog all this while… Jus wan 2 ask u guys a question… "There r 3 owls on top of a tree and all r best frenz. 1 day, 1 of them died.. So do the leaves on the tree get lesser or more??"… Dunno rite??… I also noe u guys dunno…. Slowly.. Tke ur time and answer it… Haha!!!….

Wat is wrong wif me??.. Y m i also being such a nuisance sometimes 2 the ppl around me.. Latest news.. I jus got some1 pissed off again.. Haix!!.. Ivan!! Stop being such a jackass!!!.. Ever wondered y lunatics have 2 be lunatics??.. Past few days, my unit was bombed by a lunatic (man in his 40s, ugly looking and has body odour) living near me.. How much luckier can a person get man!!.. Haix!!.. He jus out of nowhere will start throwing things.. My house was under attack 2 times.. Once was 2 pails and the other 2 pacs of ‘fisherman’s friends’.. Imagine throwing sweets at my house.. He sure has alot of time 2 waste or should I say he is ‘waiting for his calendar’… No choice.. Called in the police and as usual.. The police cant do anything and jus went off.. Can some1 PLEASE HELP ME N THROW HIM INSIDE WOODBRIDGE??!!!… Thanx!!!.. I will appreciate it alot and treat u 2 a dinner… (kaya bread and plain water…)… Haha!!!… He is testing my patience and limits.. He will go around catching ppl’s attention but hey pal it doesnt work on me.. he mus Thanx God tat i have alot of patience.. Haha!!!…

So nice… Unforgettable night the past Sat.. I was being ‘left-out’ by my cg members.. They went Mind’s Cafe and there was I at my usual hangout place.. Guess where… Aiyo!!.. Wrong la!!.. Its Expo Hall 8.. My Ops room… Diaoz!!!.. Then I called up Cass and meet her up 2gather wif Wyelin for dinner.. OMG!!!.. I spent $40 on the meal alone… Its okayz but the crazy part was the 3 of us can sit at the bus stop opposite HK Cafe at Siglap through the nite til 4am.. YES!!.. 4am!!!.. Wat did we do there??.. Ohh!!!… Wat else??… OMG!!.. Not tat la.. jus tok crap lo… Haha!!!… We even gave Wyelin her bible exams and usher exams man.. Haha!!.. She scored pretty well lo… Haha!!… By the time 4am reached.. We were all ‘zombies’ le… Haha!!!..

The next day was Sunday and it was Soccer Day again!!.. Yes!!… Training was fun and it builds up our stamina.. Good!!!.. Excellent!!… More… More…. More… We r having a match wif the BBG tis coming Sun at Siglap Sec.. U can come n support.. Haha!!!.. tqs Hor!!!… Haha!!!.. Went home after tat for a family dinner and 2 watch 1 of my favourite movie, ‘Infernal Affairs’.. Haha!!!…

The mooncake festival quite memorable also la.. I went 2 play laterns wif my 2 close sisters cum cg members… Nearly set ablaze the whole Tampines.. Haha!!!.. Playing wif the laterns was no fun at all.. Its the setting of fire 2 the laterns tat excites me… Sadistic rite??.. Haha!!… I thought so 2.. Haha!!!… Have 2 wait til next year b4 i can set ablaze another fire… 363 days more…. Haha!!!…..

"Let go of the things tat are not worth holding on to.."… Letting go of my feelings for Grace its abit difficult.. The last straw was when i was at the KL Emerge.. No use la.. If i hold on to it, the friendship will get even worse… It wont be fruitful but it will only backslide.. So the conclusion is… I DO NOT LIKE GRACE!!!!!… If not, me 40 le stil SINGLE N AVALIABLE!!!.. And Grace, if u r reading tis…(she dun read my blog de)… I M SORRY FOR CAUSING TIS FRIENDSHIP 2 TURN OUT TIS WAY!!!.. Lets get back 2 being the craps tat we were last time.. I hope!!.. It takes 2 hands 2 clap.. No use using 1 and clap on ur lap… No sound de.. Equals to zero effect… Look forward and dun look back.. " Black and white is divided by just a thin line"….. Never mind me… I always snap at this hour of the day de…

Hao le la…. Its a cold day and nite… 2moro is another day and woner how the day after 2moro will look like??…. Hmmmmm!!!!!…………………..

Any1 have new songs tat can send me??… My hp mp3 songs all going to be extinct le…. Faint!!!…

Helloz every1!!!.. Like i have say b4.. I only update my friendster blog when i m not feeling okayz.. And u r damn rite i m not feeling okayz.. What??.. Why??.. How??.. Dun ask me those questions also.. I DUNNO the answers and in process of finding it.. Why have things become tis way??.. What did i do wrong??.. How long has this been going on??.. I ask myself did i do something wrong or did i say something wrong??.. If it yes.. Then i apologise to it but it seems worse than tat.. WE ARE NOT TALKING AND COMMUNICATING!!!… The last sms i sent to her was during my time in Kl and the last time we talkied was like… Phew!!!.. Deliverance service more than a month ago… Teach me wat 2 do??.. Give up??… Press on??… Hope for something else 2 happen or 2 make things happen??… I have asked her 4 an outing 7 times and she rejected me FLAT 8 times saying she is busy with work and alot of other things.. It makes me wonder wat can she be busy wif 24/7???… Ask her, dun ask me…. I do not have e answers…

Attachment 2 the Elites Team has make me realise 1 thing… TLC!!!… Tender Loving Care… I know tat i have make alot of ppl dislike me of my attitude last time and i would like 2 take tis as an opportunity to sincerely apologise 2 those i have scolded and shouted last time.. I hope u guys wont take it 2 heart.. Everbody makes mistakes, rite??… I dunno wat i have become and my relationships wif some of my colleagues have been affected also.. So i would like 2 apologise to Jixian, Ben, Jiajun, Jiahui, Jianhui, Seng Wee, Dexter, Junyong, Roger, Randolph, Jason, Wah Keong, Jacky, Timothy, Xiao Xin, Titus, Richard, Raymond, Peter, Cheney, Erni, Huey Fan, Evon, Esther, Linda and most important of all, Grace for being rude and unreasonable sometimes.. I M SORRY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!.. I m a human 2 and humans make mistakes and i will do my best to think twice b4 coming out from my stupid mouth again… (",)… Hope tat we r all still frenz… (",)… I know its hard building back e closeness of the friendship but i wish tat they will give me a chance 2 do it…

Attachment to e Elites have been a whole lot experience 4 me 2.. I have 2 be extremely sharp and agile to be ready to serve.. Tis past Sat i have learned something new from moving the pulpit.. I have 2 use 1 hand to lift the pulpit and the other to tap a person’s shoulders.. It has been a pleasure and honour 2 be serving God in tis area and i will do my best to serve God during my attachment wif e Elites..

The year is coming to an end soon and there is stil alot of things unfulfilled for me.. I haven gotten my lappy, Stil haven pass my Class 3 driving, Stil wondering where is my Man U jersey, when can i watch my beloved EPL at home.. Haix!!!!.. So little time and so many things 2 do… Why out of a sudden i say all tis.. Cos as i was reading a frenz’s blog, she actually list out her wishlist and it bang me.. I have NOTHING at all.. I m already 28.. Its time not 2 play amymore.. Wake up le.. If not, no1 gonna like a guy without anything…

The past Saturday I finally went to watch a movie since ‘Transformers’.. It was EVAN ALMIGHTY!!!.. Went to watch with a bunch of ushers.. YES!!.. USHERS!!!.. I felt so ushered man!!!.. Haha!!!.. Though the movie was okayz but the fellowship was more exciting… There was tis sister named Wyelin… DO NOT MESS AROUND WIF HER!!!.. DO NOT TRY HER KICK ALSO!!!.. Her kick is worse than Wong Fei Hong’s no-shadow kick man!!!.. Got a kick from her and my leg gotta a blue black.. Haha!!.. Lucky didnt break my leg.. Hehe!!!… Total the 5 of us went and i enjoyed the company throughout the nite…

The past Sunday my football club, TQS, had a match wif the musiccians at Bedok and it didnt turn up well 4 me.. I only got 2 play 7 mins of the game and it had to rain 2 mins into my playing time.. Can I have more playing time??… I promise I will much more 2 contribute 2 the Team’s play… PLEASE!!!.. Captain, Manager.. PLEASE!!!.. In the end, the match ended early as a heavy downpour came at the 68 min of play.. The match ended 1-1… WE STIL UNDEFEATED IN 2007!!!.. Yeah!!!…

It’s useless writing only and no actions taken… Will it be a thing of the past or will it stil come through 4 me???… A Man U full kit, A compaq laptop, Getting attached and  officailly being in Elites.. Tat’s my desires for 2007…. There’s alot of onther things but if i keep writing on.. It will never end……….. Tsk Tsk…………..

Hi Guys!!.. I am back from the KL Emerge!!.. It has been 1 awesome event and mission trip for me man!!.. The only thing was the bus ride to there.. It was a long 6 hours from Singapore!!.. Phew!!.. Finally when we reached there, It was a 1st shopping day for us. I didnt relly get alot of things, only got myself a "Transformers" t-shirt. The real action began on the 2nd day as the event was from the 29th to the 31st. It was the 1st time i taking up an IC post and got a real ’shocker’ when i was assigned to escort Pastor Kong. I didnt really noe how 2 do it but i jus go by faith!!.. I jus follow how David, James and Wenxiang did in Church and jus do it!!.. I like 2 thanx ALL the Security and the Ushers for making the operations a success. Without my teammates, We wont have done it!!.. And of cos to Jimmy, Head of the Security and Ushers throughout the event. Though sleep was limited but i find joy in serving the Lord and going for this mission trip. Bit the sad thind was not to buy anything back for the girl tat i like.. Haix!!.. Sad!!.. I get 2 noe Liu Geng Hong and Wing during this conference also. It was not a long chat but hey, I got to talk 2 them man!!!.. Haha!!!.. But the more important one was to get to talk 2 Pastor Kong up close and personally!!!.. Yipee!!!.. it was a challenging and wonderful experience for me as i learn things that i have never learn in Expo… Those times there will alwayz be remembered in my heart.. We took photos with Pastor Kong and the mission team on the last day… Though Pastor was tired, but he just gradually obliged and took pictures withe us!!.. Hee!!.. Not everyday u can take photos wif Pastor!!.. Haha!!..

I really miss Grace when i was there and i didnt sleep weel on the 3rd day cos I was missing her alot!!.. Though she didnt really replied my sms but i noe tat she is busy and tired herself so i didnt want to disturb her. Sorry I didnt get anything back for her and not even an "Emerge" wristband..

Now tat my ‘hoildays’ are over, working life resumes and i don’t have the kick to work yet.. Honestly.. My body is working but my mind is stil switch off.. Haha!!!.. not much OT for me tis week as i will resume OT next week.. Haha!!!…

The past Sunday was the SOT graduation service and guess wat!!.. My ‘niuer’ fianlly graduated.. Happy for her as she will begin a new chapter in her life.. Jiayouz!!.. This ‘niuer’ of mine is strong and cute.. She will go all the way man adn do something great in her life 4 God!!!… Okayz la.. Its getting late… 6pm le… Time 2 shut down and com and sleep… Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…………………………………………….

The month is coming to an end and what have i accomplish this month??.. I need to sit down and really think abt what i want by the year end.. I will be going for my 2nd mission trip next week to Kl from the 28h to the 1st.. I am happy that I will be going for the trip as I can serve God and the people there.. But I will also miss some1 very very very much.. YES!!.. It’s HER!!.. GRACE!!.. Sometimes I really really miss her alot.. I m happy even if she will be asking to ‘go and die’ and calling me ‘pig head’, at least we are stil talking to each other.. Am i rite??.. What to buy for her??.. Headache!!… Any ideas??.. Anyone??.. Maybe you can help me.. YES!!.. YOU!!.. she is the girl i like and I haven gotten her anything, not even her birthday present yet and her birthday have passed so long le.. how to go after her in the future.. Haix!!… But i hope that she will give me a chance next time when she is ready to have a boyfriend.. It doesn’t matter how long it takes and I m willing to wait.. ‘The best is always worth the wait’….. She is so busy with her work and many many other things, how can i be an ‘angel’ for her??… Still thinking and thinking… God!!.. Pls help me.. I REALLY LIKE HER!!!.. My hope is in your precious and dearing hands.. I believe You for the best and I believe she is the BEST!!!… Well… Let time test my patience.. In the meantime, I wish her well in her work, Ministry, Cg and family.. She will do greater things than the things that she is doing now.. I now can only tell myself to wait at one corner and support her in the open and love her in secret…

EPL has started and its into the 4th game this coming Saturday.. Man U are in an unusual position of 15th.. What is happening to them??.. 2 draws and 1 defeat to add to the standings.. Thay are up against Tottenham this Sunday and THEY WILL WIN!!!.. Even if Man U doesn’t win the EPL theis season.. I M FOREVER A MANCHESTER UNITED FANATIC!!!!…

It’s getting late.. I am going to have a sweet dream of HER!!!.. Getting restless….Snore!!!!!…….. Snore!!!!!…….. Snore!!!!…….

I watch the channel 8 show "Honour & Passion" last nite n there was tis touching scene where "Wenjing" thrashed all his feelings out 2 "Peipei" out when she was ‘drunk’.. So touching!!!.. Ya!!!… it nearly make me cry!!.. Hmmm!!.. "Do u really detest me so much??.. I really would be happy if u will stay happy.. I jus hope tat i can b there 4 u 2 share ur burdens wif u…." When can I say tat 2 her.. YES!!.. HER!!.. Izzit very difficult 4 us 2 even start a converstion??.. Or m I being 2 ‘afraid’ 2 start 1 wif her??.. I noe tat she does not need a bf now but I m willing 2 wait.. Wait 4 the day tat she is ready 2 accept a bf..YES!!.. HER!!… How can I make her not ‘detest’ me so much??.. Or mayb she doesnt even ‘detest’ me n its my own thinking…. Hmmm!!!… Can any of u help me out wif tis??.. I m running out of ideas.. Or should i start picking out a few tricks from Korean tearjerkers??… Mayb tat wil work 4 me.. Yes!!.. U!!.. Help me!!!… 995!!!… SOS!!!… Anything!!!…

It’s a rainny day.. I m tired n sleepy… KO!!…..

Helloz everyone!!!… Happy belated National Day!!… I m back to update my blog.. It has been busy weeks for me 4 the past 1 month.. Work. work and more work, only on National Day that i can finally have a good rest.. Slept till 6pm yesterday to watch the NDP parade on Channel 8.. It was the 1st time the parade been held at Marina Bay but 2 me, it was great after 3 years of not watching NDP…

The last weeks FOP services at SIS was not really of good memories, especially the last day.. Everything was went wrong for me.. Was to complacent wif myself and took things for granted.. Was really disappointed with the moving out of the pulpit at the end of the service…. It just went haywire.. But taking it as a lesson learned and not to repeat it again.. Well!!.. I m going to have a change in things and will update on tat again…

For those reading this blog.. YES!!!… YOU!!!… For the last time, I DID NOT LIKE JOLIN orJENNIFER!!!!… Both of them were not on my list b4 and it will never be… Its GRACE!!!.. For God’s sake.. It’s GRACE!!!!!… Get it??!!!??…. Even if SHE is reading it, then read.. There’s nothing to hide anyway.. There’s no wrong in liking someone, rite??… I m not asking her to be my girlfriend or neither m i chasing her now, we just need to build up the friendship and i m jus doing tat now.. If she the one, then she’s the one…

The EPL season going to start on the 11th of August.. Who will be crowned CHAMPIONS at May 2008???… Anyone’s guess but it’s going to be MANCHESTER UNITED again.. Though their new jersey may not look as beautiful as last year.. But wat the heck.. They are stil my team and they will be crown CHAMPIONS at May 2008.. Yeah!!.. Go MAN U go!!!… All the way!!!…

I m back from the Emerge break!!… Has been a busy day 4 me and sucky one.. Ya!!.. Its truth man!!.. Sucky is the correct word 2 use!!..  Got scolded 4 nothing again.. What is the world coming to??.. Are bosses alwayz correct and workers alwayz wrong??.. Sometimes jus like giving my boss a big slap on the face jus 2 wake him up.. When its suppose 2 be the outlets’ fault and i have 2 tahan the arrows 4 them.. Wait til they call up n I will give them a piece of my mind.. I m going 2 explode inside myself..

Y m I feeling so stress and easily fustrated tis week days??.. M i thinking 2 much again??.. Or m i really 2 stress up wif work??.. Or izzit something else..

I jus confess 2 e gal tat i like her n she didnt have any responds at all.. Feels tat she is avoiding me or something or m I thinking on e wrong direction again??.. Someone pls help me here!!!!… She told me tat it will be a busy week 4 her but izzit truth??.. Only wheni express my feelings 2 her then she told me tis.. I ask her jus now whether she was touched by wat i did on Sun nite n she didnt reply at all.. Die liaoz tis time??!!!!??…. Wat 2 do now??.. Ignore her again??… Or wait 4 her 2 contact me??… Maybe I made awrong move by telling her I like her.. How 2 savage or its jus normal reaction??…

Come on… Its late le… Getting drunk soon…. Good Nitez Nitez…

Hihi again!!.. Its time 2 write my daily blog again.. Hmmm!!!.. How 2 begin 2day??.. 4 the 1st time i m so clueless about writing my blog.. I have an important announcement to make: I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO RUIN JENNIFER’S LIFE!!!.. Yes!!!.. Its truth!!.. Sorry to disappoint u guys out there but its a final decision by me. I believe that there is alwayz some1 else better and more suitable 4 me.. Yes!!!.. Time will tell everything!!.. DO NOT RUSH!!.. Yup!!.. Tat’s right!!..

I m happy now that i have alot of frenz around me.. But frenz will 4ever be frenz only.. Haix!!!.. What am i so stress abt??.. Wake me up please!!.. I need some wake up calls from u guys..

Well.. Emerge is only 2 days away.. Yes!!.. finally its coming again..

I m going to watch "PIrates of the Carribean: At World’s End" agin and tis time I make sure i understand wat the movie is toking abt.. Well.. Its getting late again and I will update u on the movie progress agin in my next blog.. Now.. I have snapped again.. Good nitez…. Sweet dreamz and sleep tight tight… Rise n shine!!!…

Yes!!!.. 3 more days to Emerge 07!!!.. really excited to be part of it!!.. Its even better when i do not have 2 work on Thurs and fri!!.. Yeah!!… Though overage a long time ago, I can feel like a youth again!!.. "Back to the Future"!!.. Hehe!!..

Funny funny.. Remember my previous post when i mentioned tat i like this gal from the same church as me.. Funny is that i dun think abt her nor do i so excited abt her le.. Wat has happened??… Was it a crush only or an influation??.. She also much younger than me la.. So like my cg member alwayz says,"Dun ruin her life la!!!".. Hahahaha!!!.. If tats e case, God!!.. take the feelings away fast… I believe U have planned some1 more nicer 4 me.. YES!!!… I BELIEVE AND TRUST IN U!!!… Yup!!.. Yup!!…

More funny is that i keep contacting one of her usher frenz.. Oh oh.. Cant mention any names here.. Many many may be reading tis blog.. So its better 2 keep everything undercover.. Haha!!.. Infernal Affairs 4??.. Hehe!!.. Well.. I have learned my lessons and not 2 ‘ruin’ any gal’s life le.. I have done so many evil and bad things in the past and i dun wan 2 repeat or sink into something that i may regret doing later… I have turn over a new leaf le.. so DO NOT turn backwards and open the ‘old man’ door again.. i will keep on walking wif God and look forward..

Jus the past Sat, i went to watch ‘Pirates of the Carribean: At World’s End’ at Tampines wif my Ministry.. it was an event 4 me 2 forget cos i reached at 9.30 4 the show and fell asleep at the show’s climatic ending.. Diaoz rite??.. C!!.. Even u agree wif me.. Sad!!.. Nvm.. i can alwayz watch it again but i clueless wat they toking.. I haven watch ‘Pirates of the Carribean: Curse of the Black Pearl’ and ‘Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man’s Chest’ yet.. Who has the VCD or DVD can borrow me??…

Okayz okayz.. its getting quite late and I will stop… i have ’snap’ also… Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!…

It’s FINALLY Saturday le!!!.. Yipee!!!.. Hooray!!!.. I can see her at Expo!!… Y am i so excited when i dun even noe what 2 do later when i see her… ???????…. But at least look on the bright side, I can see her after a week’s ‘break’ of not seeing her.. If I continue 2 write abt her, sooner or later she will noe n tat’s e least thing i wan it 2 happen.. Hiax!!!.. So fan!!.. Headache!!.. Whatever la.. Jus go n tok crap 2 her later lol or ask her how’s her day.. But the most important thingf is 2 get her contact no.. I so far only have her Friendster and MSN accounts which she seldom go online de.. CRY!!!!!!!!!!!…. Okayz!!.. Anything la.. Jus have confidence and do it and let God do the rest… JIAYOUZ!!!.. FORZA IVAN!!!!….